Saturday, January 7, 2012
The Big Goofy Galoot
It is difficult to describe how attached a person can get to a creature that doesn’t even crawl in your lap and purr; one that you cannot touch or caress or bond with in a physical way. Prior to the accident, I never even got to touch Louise outside of taking off her halter and giving her injections. She wasn’t a touchy-feely kind of girl. Yet, we had a very unique bond.
I’m an animal person. I’m not afraid to admit, I like most animals more than most people. I understand animals, always have, it seems to come naturally to me. I’ve never understood humans; that whole saying one thing but doing another. Animals don’t do that. Temple Grandin in Animals in Translation talks about this connection to animals and it makes me wonder if I’m a little bit autistic. It would certainly explain some things.
I hadn’t been around camelids before, but I was able to make an emotional connection with Louise quickly. Not unlike the character in the movie, Louise had street smarts. She hadn’t led the perfect pampered life. She trusted no one. Louise was a tough girl with an attitude, who was fiercely loyal to the point she would start kicking ass and taking names if need be. Yet, she was a big old softie on the inside when she thought nobody was looking.
She changed while she was here. Not just physically, but emotionally.
She still didn’t really trust, but she was able to let her guard down every once in awhile and enjoy herself. That alone is the only thing keeping me from throwing in the towel and calling it quits right now.
All your kind words have touched my heart. I know you will miss her, too. One comment summed it up well, “life is so fragile.” We need to make the most of every day, don’t we?
Thank you all for being out there. It helps.